Today is the first day in a couple weeks that I've felt "Up" to typing my entry about all the grand news! I needed to start this to keep track of the journey of our new baby coming. I'm so excited and before its the three of us I want to save my memories of just us two. In a few more months they're will never be us WE it will be Us 3, so I want to enjoy these precious moments, to really appreciate each other. Since its from Me and I'm the baby bearer ;o) I can mostly tell you my P.O.V.
Sleep is my new hobby, if I don't get ample time doing my hobby I become wicked! LOL! I feel bad for him sometimes cuz I will just snap or be pushy, this baby is makin me go through some serious changes: mental, physical, and emotional. The prolem is I already had issues with all of those aspects, now I get another large dose~! But I'm super excited, nervous, anxious, sleepy, & usually nauseous. But I want to start from the beginning and follow suit...
Once upon a time in a land far, far away... No just kiddin!
Over the last few weeks I've been going through it people, I mean: waiting, doctors, and lots of blood work, negative prego tests, low hcg levels, strange doctors, vag. ultrasounds, co-pays, time off work, waiting, rising hcg levels, dodging my co-worker's spies, finding ob.gyn.'s, waiting, a whole lot of Google searches: JUST A Whole Lotta Craziness~! I was so worried that there was something seriously wrong with me, something... Cuz it just couldn't Be Nothing.
I had to pray alot and ask for my elders of church to pray for me and that reassured me that God had my hand the whole way and he would take care of me no matter what occured. I had to seriously quit running in circles chasing my tail & give it all to God. Once I literally calmed down & took a breath & let go of the burdens of stress and pressure things began to look up. I could almost visually see little beams of light flow down from Heaven & clarify all my concerns. I didn't have to talk to a therapist, or a priest, or a non-believer, I just talked to the one who brought me through my whole life. He has never let me down & till the day I take my last breath he'll see me through.
So on 6/25/10 I finally got a glimpse of: what all the fuss was about. Our itty-bitty chocolate sprinkle sized baby! *With a flutter of a heart beat* I had to fight the tears that were ready to flow, my eyes just glistened... They approximated about 6 weeks along, so why I look like I gained about 10 pounds, don't ask! ;oP
