Arrrggggg.... Nausea all day is nothing to look forward to each morning I wake up. But I like to think that everyday that I "survive" that I'm one day closer to feeling better, does it really get better? Well When?!! I'll start counting down the days like now~ My body is going through some major changes mannn.. :o) My boobs hurt, my pants dont fit at all, I'm exhausted when I roll out of bed to stumble to the bathroom since my bladder is about to explode.... The daily cravings or dislikes are growing at a rapid rate! This baby don't like nothing I used to love to eat, not even my old time good buddy: Choco-latte~ Whats up with that? I don't know but I'm willing to try anything as long as I don't sick,heart burn or that strange taste in my mouth the rest of the day! And the SMELLS are driving me loco! I smell like some super human, why is that so the baby can get a whiff what "he's" getting ready to kick back up? lol, seriously once I smell it there goes the gag factor, a whole ball of fun or bundle of joy as they would say.Brushing teeth is a new found mission, hurry up get the tongue brushed and get out before I return all my food in this sink! Man its rough out here in this prego game. I'm gonna have a nice long chit chat with miss eve when I get up to heaven....I was feeling so bad all day like what should I eat to take this feeling away? Just plain grossed out & not feeling like anything but a dark room & our bed... The smells in the kitchen as I was makin his dinner got me & I ran to the nearest shiny white pretty little abode, & proceeded to drop & give em' all that I just had, theres no holding back when that smacks ya, its like a fire drill: Stop, Drop & let it Roll! lol! But after wards man such a relief, so I guess its not so bad to let the juices flow. ;o) And I think of that 19 kids and counting lady, is she a woman who likes pain & agony? I'm having a hard time with the first one & she did this about 20 times more than me. The thought of it makes me uneasy...
Well I did want to write a good note.
Sometimes when I'm by myself and just thinkin & pondering about all the crazy things rolling through my mind, I get this urge of happiness & joy, and I'm in a positive mood, then it hits me like wait a min. why did I get happy all of a sudden? What occurred that brought this joy, I didn't do anything different. Then it comes into my mind... I have a new joy inside of me, I look down & remember I'm carrying not only the problems that come with pregnancies but the most important, the pleasure of having a little baby growing in my belly! I teared up thinking wow, God blessed me, Me! With the blessing of having a little one with the love of my life. I get to have the joy that I'm married to inside me, I get to carry this with me where ever I go, my joy of Lucson is with me, now not only in my heart but also in the form of a little him. Its amazing & breath taking that I have this... Its incredible that I have this new experience that one could never really fathom. So I will carry my bundle of joy & "his" little friends: nausea, wooziness, enhanced senses & even enlarged... umm.. you know what I mean, I'll just keep on growing up & learning new things everyday till the next time I get to see our baby on the black & white screen & hear their little heart beating like a good baby.
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